I’ve been really pathetic at writing blog posts for the last, well, maybe all this year? Maybe longer? Yikes. Anyway, I’m not going to promise to be better, because that will just jinx me, but wanted to say something about the weird state of current projects.
See, I’m currently working on these games as part of a collaboration with Marina Abramović. And it’s really pretty interesting and is, for me, raising all kinds of questions about performance art and digital games and “the digital” (or whatever). And it’s also raising all kinds of questions about collaboration in general, which isn’t something I do much. In fact, collaborating with someone was a stated goal for this year, I just didn’t expect it to be with Marina! The problem is that I can’t really write about this stuff, because there’s various bits and pieces of secrecy needed for the larger project. So I’m stuck finding it interesting on my own, in this vacuum of mine. Anyway, at the very least I can report that… I’m working on it.
The other thing I’m working on is a game called Jostle Bastard for the Playable project by Unwinnable. For that one it’s much less clear whether I’m “allowed” to blog about what I’m doing, and I kind of just haven’t been because I’ve felt like I shouldn’t. I should probably just ask actually. The other reason I haven’t really felt like blogging about it is the torrent of guilt about how long I’m taking to make what is basically a very simple game. So there’s that. But I can report that… yes, I’m working on it.
So anyway, it doesn’t leave me with all that much to say! Perhaps, though, this is my chance to return to commenting on things other than my work? I used to write about all the games I was playing all the time. I’m playing suteF at the moment, for instance, and enjoying it. That’s my review: “enjoying it”. Yeah.
But yeah, I still exist and make games, that’s all I guess I wanted to say.
I’m sitting here in the Montréal apartment thinking about how I’m working on a lot of games (like, I could put the number at something like 16 of various sizes) right now, but kind of feel like I can’t discuss process stuff like I might normally because they’re all concerning projects with/for other people and I don’t necessarily know what’s cool to write about and what isn’t. And if I can’t write about, you know, myself, then what am I supposed to write about?! Maybe I’ll try to do some game reviewing or something as a way to get back into the swing of things, I feel I’ve been playing a bunch of pretty interesting stuff online of late, and my students’ games here at Concordia are pretty fascinating, too! Anyway, sorry about the lack of posts if you were sitting there caring about that, I do continue to intend to do better. I have the very best of intentions paving my way to… somewhere.
Alright, fine, I fell off the wagon. Or back onto the wagon. Or something concerning the wagon. But now I am driving the wagon because I am back in charge. After having been feverish and ill for a week, and then being in Greece for a week, and then other stuff for a few days, I am fully in possession of my blogging faculties. I am also in possession of an essentially completed Epic Sax Game, so I’ll release that in the next day or so (doing battle with a couple of last bugs). Looking forward to writing a few things about my intentions with the game, because I suspect it won’t be overly popular, seeing as how it’s a bit difficult in an odd way. Anyway, that’s the plan. Stay tuned if you like!
At this point I can’t remember if I’ve ever mentioned my little photoblog called Hamlet and Icecream before on this blog. I mention it now because I’m heading toward the bad end of one of its inevitable cycles and I grow weary and slightly saddened by it.
Basically, I started the blog when we moved to Denmark (almost literally dating from our first day here) with the objective of posting an “interesting” photo each day and giving it a brief caption. Kind of like an achingly slow slideshow of someone’s holiday photos. Except for it’s their daily life. This was after doing something similar when we lived in Canada called “rizzlenice”, since discontinued.
Anyway, the idea of a daily photo works pretty well when you first move to a new country – it’s like being in a foreign country! Ha! So most things you see are novel and weird. The hand-baskets in the supermarkets have wheels. The squirrels have mohawks. The parks are beautiful. And so on. But it will shock you to learn that this wears off. After living in Denmark for a year and a bit, I don’t actually see as many things to take photos of as you might imagine.
A big contributing factor here is that I admit to spending more or less all my time either at home, at university, or at the local supermarket. Seriously. So, while I’ve managed to take a pretty respectable number of photos at Føtex, that well is running dry. Given that a major component of the project was to “always be seeing the world in an interesting way”, this saddens me. Turns out that I can’t quite manage to force myself to see the wonders (whether poignant, gorgeous, or hilarious) surrounding me.
So these days the real story is that when we go on a trip (like to Rome recently), I take a shitload of photos and then desperately hope against hope that they’ll last me until our next trip. When they don’t and begin to peter out (as will be happening to me again soon), I begin to look at the world around me with increasing desperation each day, thinking “what the hell am I going to take a photograph of?!” It’s actually a pretty interesting way to relate to the world.
It’d even be enjoyable if it wasn’t so stressful and unenjoyable.